::..JrEn's LiL` BlOgGy..::

2005-04-03T00:59:00.000+08:00

arhhh.
went sparkss wivv alex n maurice ytd.
reachedd homee boutt 7am bahh.
eeeks.
sickk still shoo latee denn comee homee.
*hurrs.

hmms.
drankk vodka ribena(regularr.xD)
e33(regularr.xD)
flamingg lamborr.
hmms. the lazz 1. bwg. LOL.
uu drinkk n uu noee.

shiett.
imm likee almostt voiceless noww.
dunn talkk to miee. xD.

nn wherr's ma salaryy?
kaoo.
dragg shoo longg norrt funniee lehhs.
zzzZ.

2005-03-31T10:24:00.000+08:00

s i a oo .
8.30 amm wakiee upp.
cantt sleepp siaa.
throatt damnn painn.
siann.

2005-03-31T01:01:00.000+08:00

bloggspott diedd on miee.
maa voicee diedd on miee.
ma throat diedd on miee.
at thiss momenntt , im deadd.

woww.
im feelinn so darnn boredd 2nitee.
thatt i gotta go slpp at 1amm.
thatss kindaa earliee forr miee.

comun' wheree's ma monehh.
i need'em badlyy ~

no monehh , no sparkss on fridayy.
LOL.
im .. gonna SLEEP noww.

tata.

2005-03-28T23:33:00.000+08:00

fuckk.
feeling sick. -.-" .

mendling with maa computerr this few days.
went SLS todayy.
gotta spend around $600 odd for a new cpu.
hmm okkayss.

my head is spinning.
my neck is aching.
-.- " .

2005-03-27T00:39:00.000+08:00

got backk home at 4.30am laz nitee.
went partyin' whole nitee at sparks.
was kindaa high on mood.
but fuck it.

my com just cant stop giving me problems.
never fails to spoil my mood.
i'm gonna really bugg my mum for a new com nw.

ohh btw.
had vodka ribena n e33 ytd.
thats about it.
cant be bothered to blogg much.
mood dampened.

2005-03-25T00:12:00.000+08:00

okkayss.
stayed home da whole dayy.
slept at 5am last nitee.
woke up at 11 todayy.
yeay ! finally finished what i was suppose to do ~
hope its acceptable thoughh.

as stated .
im gonna give my personal msgs todayy.

so peeps involved. LOOK HERE !
Peek-a-Boo ~

Allen
ehh. actually 1st sem we werent together that often.
until 2nd sem den we often go eat n smoke together.
aaa. with shin , chris , wilson n charles.
1 of the oldest in the bunch.
can study quite well though.
hmm.. gambatte. a good guyy la.
careful on ur bike. smoke less ~ =))

Chris
aaa. this 1 handsome leii. loll.
got to know him in the 2nd sem.
also 4got how we started talking.
seriously a good kaki.
can shop alot with you. loll.
ehh. not 4getting he accompanied me that very day i was down.
to shopping of cos.
hmm. cant say dat he aint talented.
i gotta say he has good designing senses.
or should i say fashion.
hmm. jia youu le.
sorry couldnt help u complete vb.
smoke less also ~ GAMBATTE YO !

Shin
another handsome. my mao mao.
wahahah.
still going after that girl.
or should i say status unknown.
hmm. ehh. if really get her liaoo cherish hor.
dont anyhow . loll.
also another 1 , PLEASE study hard.
u push chris , chris push u. loll.
go year 2 together !
=)) can dee.

Theo
wahh. this 1 bwg. loll.
quite gam wiv him since 1st sem.
but pls la ahh. be manly abit.
don't be too feminine. loll.
n also , no more da baoo pls.
u chose to stay in sp.
so please study hard.
push urself. dont slack le. =)).
p/s : need anymore plaits can find u? =X

Roy
intelligent guy of da bunch !
introduce me ma 1st IT job wiv acer.
loll.
thanks dude.
u really gotta good business man future.
do help da rest. =)).

Benedict,Eileen,Jaclyn
the 1st guyy , ma pri skol frenn.
didnt noe he was actually takin da same course.
wahh ahh. now handsome MAN ah. loll.
LOOK intelligent. dun let mi down le. LOL.
k laa. good luck. smoke LESS.

the next 2 .. gotta know them through SP.
nt many conversations with jac though.
but since she wrote testi for me.. OKAY LOR. =x.
she's PUNKY ! loll. n umm. nice ? =p.

eileen , aaa. this 1 talk most wiv her de.
nice gurl. always attempting to help frens.
veh friendly. hehh. dont slack too much le.
exams comming. STUDY !
n hmm. your group horr. must gambatte.
help each other more le. loll. okkay.
ALL DA BEST !

Wilson
DAMN YOU SUCKA. loll.
what can i sayy. people that knows US.
would definitely be becos we are NOISY.
loll.
this guy is like , my best bro in poly.
we slack together , booshiet together ,
see girls together =x , make noise together.
lecturers that taught my class would practically know.
we are like a pair. LOL. GOOD FRIENDS of cos.
you seriously gotta change ur attitude.
i'm nt around liaoo. loll. no1 peii u.
give lecturers chance to just aim u liaoo.
wahahah. agony ! =p.
he is like .. my IT god lor.
loll . programming genius. SCREW U. xD.
apart from school , thks for listening to me.
when i was down. though u didnt really talked much.
but i really needed that.
hope u're gonna get into the elective u want in yr2.
i know u can bro. u're 1 of da best around.
don't let me down. =)).
i'll seriously miss you.

S.P
loll. cool ehh. school and person same initials. =p.
hmm. a very .. simple minded girl.
it's kinda difficult to search for such girls in these times.
your mr salt has gotta be a hell of a lucky mann.
okk. apart from just praising. =p.
lets move on.
she's like , 1 of the blurest girl u'll ever see.
never fails to let people slap their forehead. haha.
wonder where she comes up wiv all those funny ideas.
guess thats what makes her different. loll.
heyy. gonna be 18 liaoo leh. GROW pls. ahaa. =p.
ohhya. do organise your time well.
you know yourself. you n ur well timed plannings.
for assignments espacially. loll.
seriously if u need any help just approach me.
i'll be free.
this gurl here. gotta say QUITE intelligent. ahaa.
although L1R4 same as mie. = P.
but her poly results > mine. EEE. no fair. =x.
but at least .. she's a sensible girl.
knows when to study , when to party.
hard find these days. loll.
exams comming. don't stress too muchh.
u aint supergirl.
okkays. gonna end this by giving u all my blessings.
all the best. good luckk.

LASTLY , i gotta sayy SINGAPORE POLY RAWKS !
lecturers like DORA n Mdm Choo. i'll remember u.
those nice food and packed foodcourts.
those late for lesson times.
skipping lesson times.
and of course , memories that i had.
from entering this poly.
love ya'all.

2005-03-24T04:15:00.000+08:00

tired.
d e a d b e a t.

2005-03-24T01:32:00.000+08:00

accompanied ahmaa to np todayy.
she wanted to appeal for her course.
somehow knew she was gonna be late.
but hmm. just went there as planned.
reached NP , my phone rang.
uhh. she just reached her mrt station . z.
waited for her at the foodcourt.
for say 50mins.
anyway remembered alex wanna appeal too.
phoned him down to NP.
everything settled. the 3 of us went fc to eat.
wahh hmm.
i still love .. SP food ? =/

we accompanied ahmaa back home.
cos she gotta take her workin' suit.
bought a can of beer on da wayy.
after that went down suntec n city link.
alex was STILL searching for his billabong shirt.
awww. loll.

aaa. later on went pasta mania to have dinner.
guess what.
we sayy joy there.
ahaa. long time naw CCCC. xD.
but no change anyways. = P.

okk. here comes e funnie part of da dayy.
i n alex bought tickets to watch "TheSonOfMask."
than the auntie directed us to the theatre.
we found our seats. sat down comfortably.
when the show started. it was ..
WHO LIVES DEEP UNDER THE SEA?
SPONGEBOB SQUARE PANTS !
we were like. HUH. wtF.

the auntie directed us to wrong theatre.
bwahahaha. but alas , we just stayed n watched.
hmm. although it was lame.
but heyy , its kinda funnie i gotta sayy.
good for people of all ages. loll.

oh heyy btw. i collected ma new specs.
bwahahaha.
okkayy. too-doo-looo ~

damnn. i'll leave those personal messages to 2mr.
since i aint going out.
im like kinda tired here.
ciaoo.
GAMBATTE YO.

2005-03-23T00:01:00.000+08:00

submitted withdrawal form.
guess ..
im officially no more a SP student.
walked pass ma class havin' lessons.
or maybe .. ex-class .
i'll really miss the times.
the things . the lessons .
the lecuterers . the place .
and people .
1 whole year of memories..

be back 2mr to give some personal msgs,
to people that made my life there.

than again.
HELL.
U GUYS RAWKS. =((

2005-03-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

oo.
didnt go school todayy.
just stayed home sweet homee.
guess i gotta head to school 2mr.
submitting my .. withdrawal form.
hmm.
finally im like , willing to submit.
i wonder whyy.
those that knows knows.
those that don't know doesnt know.
haa.

Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life.

do you ever feel like breaking down
do you ever feel out of place.
like somehow you just don't belong
and no one understands you.

do you ever wanna run away
do you lock yourself in your room.
with the radio on turned up so loud
that no one hears you screaming.

no you don't know what it's like
when nothing feels alright
you don't know what it's like to be like me.

to be hurt
to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked ,when you're down
to feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
and no one's there to save you
welcome to my life.

do you wanna be somebody else
are you sick of feeling so left out.
are you desperate to find something more
before your life is over.

are you stuck inside a world you hat
are you sick of everyone around.
with the big fake smiles and stupid lies
while deep inside you're bleeding.

no you don't know what it's like
when nothing feels alright
you don't know what it's like to be like me.

to be hurt
to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked ,when you're down
to feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
and no one's there to save you
welcome to my life.

no one ever lies straight to your face
and no one ever stabbed you in the back
you might think i'm happy but i'm not gonna be ok!
everybody always gave you what you wanted
you never had to work it was always there
you don't know what it's like
what it's like!
no you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

2005-03-21T01:03:00.000+08:00

Fall in love with BLUE

my new buys for da past 2weeks.
HEHEHE. =x.

BLUE Creative Zen Micro.
BLUE Creative Mouse.

didnt do muchh todayy le.
stayed at homee.
went JH house to borrow Saiyuki Reload.
went TB market to eatt.
wohh.
the food there rawks. loll.
every sunday seems to be a family dinner dayy.
came backk homee .. boreddiee.
watched 1st 3eps of saiyuki.
mm. okko bahh.

donoo wana go skol 2mr nots.
maybe 2nd halff.
depends.

`- wheres myy perfectionn.

2005-03-20T04:17:00.000+08:00

came backk homee not long ago.
haven been blogging forr 2days.
gees.
ohh anywayy i bought my zen micro.

but it was onlie the 4GB 1.
at least im happy that we lost out in the queue.
i'v gotta reason to say i dun possess such level of KIASUISM.
loll.
the very least mine is just at the beginner's level.
HEHEHE. xP.

i think im in love with the range of blue n purple colors.
loll.
BLUE illuminated creative mouse.
BLUE zen micro.
PURPLE new specs.

wooo.
so whassup next. xP!!

n ohh.
anyONE needing ANY help in projects
kindly approach mee.
im free. loll.
but u gotta have that calibre to move ma brains 1st.

awww.
-sliiipin'- zzZ !!

2005-03-18T07:01:00.000+08:00

what am i to sayy.
im up early in the mid hours.
gettin' ready to meet JH n Daren.
loll.
pls don't brand us as a total singaporean with KIASUISM.
we ain't that near it yet.
maybe its just the beginning. HEHEHE. =X

ohwell.
we're going creative to queue up.
for what ?
i'll be back around noon time on sat.
be backk to reveal moreeeee.
loll..
aa damnn. skipped school againn ! >.<.

gotta really wait for that one time to come then.
just a one moree clear time. through n through ..
i hope.

-gone-

2005-03-17T22:11:00.000+08:00

guess what.
i went sentosa twice in 2days.
both days were also only i n alex.
loll.
reasons? find out urself.
lazy to type.
we managed to find a very nice spot.
in the southernmost point of the asian continent.
its a spot where ..
u feel on top of the world.
the wind blows freely at you.
you get to look out far n wide into the calm sea.
bought beer n bacardi breezer.
drank n relaxed up there.
the wind blows things to your mind , relentlessly.
ohh ohh.
the ny3oc people are gonna show u KIASUNESS 2mr.
i'll be out 2mr till saturday n be back to tell you wat was it about then.
hurrhurr. its gonna be like .. 30hrs outt doing this.
we're just any typical singaporean. loll.

the 9pm channel8 show shown everynite is 1 for every1 to watch.
describes 3 different r/s.
about 3 different types of girls n guys.
i believe. i belong to the 3 different mentality of the guys.
at different times of cos.
so guess im belonging to which now. haha.
50cents for a correct guess.
HEHEHE. =x.

i realised though i may be leaving sp sometime soon.
but it seems that i aint totally ready yet.
things that hold me backk still exists.
like the frequent rushing of assignments with frens.
the things we always do in class.
of cos , other main factors apply.
i'm human afterall.
hope you guys will still remember me.
loll ..
give me just one more time,
before i leave?

gotta slp early tonight.
take kaire ya'all

2005-03-16T01:45:00.000+08:00

tiredd. boredd.
did nothingg todayy in school.
came home straight.
saving for this sat.
ZEN MICRO.

goodnighthavefun.

2005-03-15T20:55:00.000+08:00

Zhang Jing Xuan - Qi Dai.

2005-03-15T00:33:00.000+08:00

mm. didnt go school todayy.
kindaa tiredd.
gees.
3dayss nv go school le.
>.
wokee up by chris' call todayy.
sorry dude. couldnt go school to help.
anyway, suddenly 4got i still gotta go CMPB.
luckily my mum heading somewhere near der.
so i quickly rushed changed n went out wiv her.

before that i called up CMPB.
the guy said i didnt needa bring any docs.
but when i reached der.
the women said i had to bring ma lasalle docs.
screwed up communications.
wasting people's time.

aaa.
i think i just learnt to skive on monehh n time.
from the exhibition. crapp. haha.
aaa.
finally heading to school 2mr.
yeay.
u peeps missed mie right.
HEHEHE. =X.

ehh. calculated.
don't think can go CB this week.
afterall im gonna spend like all i hav NOW at creative.
awww. sadd. next week then. HEHEHE. =p.

mm.. days pass quickly.
most prob gonna submit withdrawal form
end of this week?
gonna miss sp. really am.

sleep. zzZ.

2005-03-14T00:12:00.000+08:00

Thursday , 19.
Friday , 23.
Saturday , 23.
Sunday , 36.

Total : 101 printers sold.

WAH. loll.
at the expense of a super dry throat.
breakingg(about to) legs.
2 new pimples.
AKAOZ. loll.

damn im tired.
finally the show's overr.
had to torment some PHUCKED S'pore ppl.
gees.
but some were nice too. =DD.
SALARY fazfaz comeeee.
top salesss .. HEE. =X.

ohhh. bought new creative mouse todayy.
WAH. damn nice le. xD.

Zen micro im commin'. >.< !!
goodniteee.

2005-03-13T01:00:00.000+08:00

eeee.
todayy targetted 28 de le.
(actually 25 xP.)
in the end only sold 23 *AGAINN*
no moree top saless todayy. eeek.
KH top todayy wiv 28. >.
nvmm. 2mr jiaayouu.
mush touch 25. ^^.

ehh.todayy ma fonee gt 9missed calls.
all by ahmaa. loll. cos i workin din hear.=X.
supposed to pass her the stuff.
LUCKILY i checked ma fone.
abo i sure kena CHOPPED. =P.
ehh.
she goingg for re-interview.
dis time must peii her go le. lols.
NVM. ahmaa. THIS TIME SURE CAN. =P.

tiredd..
went atrium summore after workk.
loll.
we're just pure crazy.
next week busy le.
queue up ferr zen micro frm friday nite.
go C.B on saturda nite. LOL.
YEAY.

goodnite.byebye.havefun.xD.
25 ! GAMBATTE. =DD.

2005-03-12T00:46:00.000+08:00

Maroon 5 - This Love

I was so high ,I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind.

Whispered goodbye and she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart.

This love has taken it’s toll on me
She said goodbye, too many times before.
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice
cause I won’t say goodbye anymore.

I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied.
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again.

This love has taken it’s toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
I have no choice cause
I won’t say goodbye anymore.

I’ll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything’s alright.
My pressure on her hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that’s what you want me to do.

2005-03-11T23:49:00.000+08:00

YEAY. targetted 21 todayy.
sold 23.
top sales again. =XxX.
okko. dont look. im gettin' proud NOE. xD.

ohyaa. now i finally can find a good point.
for this hair color of mine.
allows ma customers to spot me EASILY.
LOL. everytime approach mie. xD.
not purposely want KS de la har. hurrhurr.

nt bad le.
todayy gort mie,kh,barry,alex n jim.
loll. all fwen siaa.
hairstyle all almost same.
no wonder work for BROTHER.
2mr still gorrt daren n nelson comming.
WEEE. loll.

akaoz.
todayy take cab go down cityhall.
$13. WOO. high. xD.

heyy. nt cos i late lo.
cos alex early morning wake mi up..
ask me eat breakfast together.
than i take cab down meet him.
hmm. not badd larr.
at least he shared his sandwich wiv mie. xD.

EH ! i gonna go get a Zen Micro Nex Week.
HEHEHE. =X YEAY ! xD.

2mr aim .. 25 - 28 bahh. ^^.
2more dayss to go.
jiaa youu ! =DD.

tireddddddd >.< !!

2005-03-10T23:38:00.000+08:00

lets be BRIEF.
im tired k. loll.

suppose to reach suntec at 10.
last nite i set my alarm wrongly.
suppose to set 8.15 . i go set 9.15 -_-.
in the end took cabbie to dover.
met KH der.

my first day of sales was kinda good.
inititally only targetted 5 todayy -_-.
in the end i n KH became top sales todayy.
each selling 19 printers. =X.
wahahah.
2mr aim 20 le. MUST BREAK 20 MARK. =D.

during the show .. saw alex n all.
ahha.
after that saw ma school IWGD lecturer.
was kinda shocked. loll.
in the end she got her friend to buy the 598 printer from mi.
hurhur. thks ! =X.

after that a bunch of us sat the supervisor's pick up home.
he dropped me off at city hall.
AKAOZ. first time sit pick up.
summore sit behind. WAH SONG. xP.

oh hmm.. although arsenal went out of CL.
but at least dey won back some pride.
good job =)).
i won $91 also. =P.
ARSENAL WILL BE BACK. =P.

wahh. for the first time in dont know how many mths.
im actually gonna sleep le.
ITS LIKE BEFORE 12 LOR. loll.

tiredd >.<

2005-03-10T02:22:00.000+08:00

2.22am.
mm.. nice numberr there.
gonna start ma 4 days of work at suntec from 2mr.
gotta be there by 10 for the briefing.
geez.
guess im gonna be there alone till bout 3.
KH has somethings to attend to in school.
ohwell..

1hour more to commencement of e match.
aaa.. ARSENAL n MADRID plsss win. >.-prayss-

wahh. hmm.. normal dayy in school.
went fc6 to eat againn.
"UNCLE , MORE CHILLI , NO VEGE." xP.
didnt attend ma last networkin lesson.
chris n all wasnt going either.
in fact, i had iwgd test in da afternoon.
i didn't go also.
wasnt required to anyway.

mm. leaving SP kinda soon.
maybe in say like .. 2wks ?
if i had the chance to stay , i really would.
but i guess the COP for designing courses in SP was kinda high.
didnt have a choice. dont question why im changing.
u just gotta know designing has always been apart of my life.
how will it be like ..
when im no more in SP .
what will it be ..
honestly i wouldnt wanna leave SP much due to personal reasons.
as in .. i would miss the people there.
but i guess its just apart of life to move on.
it aint as easy.

things maybe gotten over with.
but memories still linger.
times will or are missed.

chatted abit with KH bout his stress.
bout his mis-communication wiv his gf.
things kinda came to my mind.
hahaa.
this time last semester, i was like him too.
but i guess i was much luckier.
i had someone to talk to.
someone that will understand me.

mm.. like what i've just mentioned.
its the past.
all in the past..

hahaa..
eeek. 1hr moreee ..

2005-03-08T22:13:00.000+08:00

hmm.
went school for lessons todayy.
OPSY n IDEAS sleepingg all the way.
damn. still shagged -_-".
don't know whyy.

eat wanton meee during break.
YES. wanton mee AGAIN. =DD.
"MORE CHILLI , NO VEGE" xP.

VB practical .. helped chris to do VB assignment.
anyway i was supposed to do with him.
i aint gonna just leave him alone n go am i.
RESPONSIBLE k. =P.

hmm.
just told my dad about my changing of school.
he doesnt seem to be much convinced.
guess he's just different from my mum.
he must be thinking..
"so what future do u have if u dun study poly."
ohwell.
im gonna show ya wat my talents can do. =)).
starting work on thursdayy.
ahmaa only starting drawing 1 art piece.
when her interview is this saturday -_-".
gotta help her 2mr.
mm. sorriee ahmaa. cant peii u go.
cos workingg >.0.o zzZ.

i'll definitely fall in love with someone else in future.
but i can never give what i gave before again.
i won't be able to love like i loved again.

interpret my thoughts from these words.
if u cant, just treat it as i've never said this before.
=)).

2005-03-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

ohh. im like lackin' slp.
ma head's spinning. 0.o zZz.

geee.
din went for school todayy.
went for ma product briefing at brothers.
supposed to meet nelson n kh at 9.10 .
in the end kh 40mins late.
i n nelson was like waiting. loll.
oh well. i gt no say about late ppl. heeh. =x.

followed kh's supervisor to da brother's office.
AKAOZ. its tat nice brownish gold building at bugis.
STM deprives my memo of that building's name. =P.
whoaa.
we sat in the meeting room with the managers n all.
woo.
first time. loll.
there were presentations here n there.
nice exp. heh. oh , n the people there were nice. =DD.
treated to pizza n kfc in the meeting room.
NO MERCY. =X.

1 of the supervisors or something said maybe i could
continue workin fer them after da show.
BUT, i must dye my hair black.
i was like .. NAWWWWWWWWWW. xD.

later on went down PS to meet alex.
was kinda bored.
aaa.
spent SOME monehh on xbox.
fifa street ! gonna cont. =P
must snatch machine frm JH le. =X.
played some fun games wiv alex todayy.
as in ID. loll.

oh ya. not forgetting ahsad joined us.
so today was like only the 3 of us.

was kinda tired n shagged.
decided to leave at around 7.
ahaa. the other 2 left also.
hmm..
had this recurrence(how u go about spellin tat?xD)
just now.
hmm. anyway u wont know what is it
unless u noe what i im thinking these times.

tired.
hope alex n jim gets the job at COMEX.
join me , daren , nelson n kh.

jaa.

2005-03-07T02:42:00.000+08:00

Saturdayy >>
ohh hmm.
had a match wiv phantom in the dayy.
we won. yeay.

than headed to CB wiv alex,james n jim.
aaa. fun. right alex? LOL.
dun havta emphasize too much.
follow us n u'll know.
weee.

left der around 2.30.
cos james was TIRED.
ohwell.
had my fair share of fun der.

as for todayy..
just went out for dinner with my aunt n all.
thats it.

tata!

2005-03-06T21:17:00.000+08:00

dance n sing to this.

The Wonders - That Thing You Do.

you , doing that thing you do.
breakin ma heart into a million pieces
like u've always do.

and you, don't need to be cruel.
you never even knew about the heartache
i'v been going through.

while i try n try to forget you girl
but its just so hard to do.
everytime you do that thing you do.

i , know all the games you play.
n i'm gonna find a way to let you know that
u'll be mine some day
coz we , would be happy cant u see.
if u would only let me be the 1 to hold u.
n keep you here wiv me.

while i try n try to forget you girl
but its just so hard to do
everytime you do that thing you do.

i don't ask alot girl
but i know 1 thing's for sure.
it's your love i haven got girl.
n i just can't take it anymore.

*shouts*

cause we , would be happy cant u see.
if you would only let me be the 1 to hold u.
n keep u here with me.

cause it hurts me so just to see u girl
around wiv some1 new
everytime you do that thing u do..
~

i'm feelin da effects. loll.
im tiredd. zzz.

2005-03-06T04:08:00.000+08:00

eeeeee.
just came backk frm CB.
supaa tiredd.
i drank -->
1CUP of vodka ribena($12),
1JUG of tiger beer($10),
1CUP of waterfall($25)
okk. the last 1 is ..
SCRICTLY NOT FOR PEOPLE THAT DONT WANA GET TOO HIGH.
xD.

blogg 2mr.
DAMN TIRED.

2005-03-04T01:14:00.000+08:00

OPPS. 1.15 le.
supposed to zzz at 1. =x.
gotta go soon. =p.

today's lesson started at 9.30..
but i LEFT house oni at 9.30.
lol.
took cab to school.
woo.. it took like ages be4 a cab came.
darnn. but ohwell. doesnt matter.
reach school i see every1 comming outta class.
i was like WTF. loll.
i was like 1hr late but there was still 1hr to go for that class.
found out tat lect. treat us go down fc eat. woo.
/me hugs JUNIE. =x.

was like 2hrs+ be4 netf lesson lo.
wilson n all went to clementi.
i didnt follow. waiting for theo to plait ma hair. WAHAHA.=x.
SUCCESSFUL. yeay! +P.

took da shuttle bus wiv stephie buddy to admin office.
that bus was for the soon to be SP students.
we 2 actact juz take finish o lvl go join in oso. =X.
CRAPP.
but i love it. wahah.

netf ? all sitted behind playin wiv lappytop.

mm.
went for iwgd lesson.
woo.. learnt new things leh. loll.
oh ya. webp's due date 2mr.
every1 was like rushing n all.
i didnt bother to do. coz i didnt need to also.
hmm.
i had ideas for ma own webby.
but i just gave it to chris. since he didnt hav much ideas.
ahaa.
HEY!BE A MAN.DO THE RIGHT THING.
take my design muz get at least B ! =x.

speaking of B hor.
my webp oni got B. T.T
AKAOZ. i expected nothing less than an A lo.
even ma lect. say she surprised i got B oso. DIAOO.
=((. saddeddd !

before i leave.
>>>>>>

my plait! heh. maybe gonna make 1 moreee. ^^.

nitess peepos !

2005-03-02T03:42:00.000+08:00

heyhey.
its 3.42am n i aint slpin yet.
what the hell rite ?
opps .. cos 4am got soccer lehh. =P .

ohhh.
i got a complain to make thoughh.

WHY WHEN I WEAR 3QUATS GO SCHOOL IT WILL BE RAINING . BUT WHEN I WEAR JEANS IT WILL BE FREAKIN' HOT.

haha. opps. =x.
okk. i think i'll juz make do wivout wearing anything.
WOH WOH. cool it. -clams myself- loll.

yawnn. tired ..
maybe goingg town 2mr ?
see howw. boringg.
JH dying hair lehh. i wana c. =X. KPO.
*WELCOME TO THE GOLDIE HAIR CLUB* xD.
but mine aint gold. mine's whitish. =x.

n .. mm.
hope ahma is okk bahh.
she better becareful though.
sighh ~

gonee.

2005-03-01T01:06:00.000+08:00

WAHHH .. tmd. 2days nv blogg le.
i so lazy siaa. wahahah.
no larr. cosh was busy marhh. ^^.

Saturdayy
>>> met steph buddy in da morning to go lasalle.
wahh. dono kan chiong or watt. travel halfway le
realise i 4got to bring O Lvl Cert.
loll. in the end meet chunwei late. sorwee >.< =x.
reach de lerr waited for our interviews.
wahahah. the person let me cut queue.
at 1st i juz wana test out the lappy.
but the lecturer say nvm she just interview me 1st.
woo. i like herr siaa. she's GOOD. KIM ! i'll remember. =p.
aaa. btw. im in. she said she liked my portfolio. heee.

*SPECIAL THANKS TO CHUNWEI !

finished at around 1.30pm.
diaoo. so earlyy. bo lang at atrium yett.
walked around myself .. after that found JH n JL derr.
loll.
played xbox. wah diaoo. $7. loll.
din touch ID at all siaa. woo.
until ...... after eat finish dinner.
wanted to play dota. but no space.
the guy put us aeroplane. NNB. =x.

go backk atrium playy EVO7.
wahh. every1 attract me to playy. loll.
nice worr.
missed last bus ~ went to pool place der.
no moneyy playy le.
Daren , JH n miee went kopitiam to slackk.
than went 7-11 drinkk.
at the end da nite .. 2am den reach homee. ^^.

Sundayy
>>>met andrew to dye my hair.
at 1st wanted to juz bleach ontop .
turned out like so .. FREAKISH. loll.
in the end i vehh mafan. =x.
ask the stylist to dyee my hair after bleaching.
wahh ehh. NOT BAD LA HAR.
i like the new bleach color. wooo.
bleach twice + color. SIAO LIAO. xD.
conditioner ~ where are youu.

mummy came home to fetch me go dinner.
wiv my auntie n all.
every1's reaction was like... WOH. loll.
went anchor point to eatt spaggy.
sat my couz's rx8 again. loll.

Todayy
>>>okk. check out the comments n reactions all ova.

1st comments of the dayy : Stated by Shin
"wahh. u bleach ur hair ? how muchh?"

common comments of the dayy : Every1
"wahh. u bleach ur hair ?" @_@!!!

BEST comment of the day : Keith
"WAH. ur hair NUMBA1 hair color."

LOL. buay tahan.
ohh yaa. ahmaa got 17 for her r4.
win me 1pt. eeee.
lolss .. owe her reward liaoo.
not fairr. =x.
wahahah..
okkk ~~ i lazy to blog liaoo. loll.
ciaoo.
nth muchh after tat ~

2005-02-28T14:33:00.000+08:00

ahmaa takin her results noww.
wahahah.
GLHF.
< 25 horss. =p.
in webp class noww.
eeew. so boredd.
sat on dora's place the whole lesson.=x.
im the only 1 that does tat ~ wahahah. =p.
yawnn.
bored.
blogg when im homeee.

2005-02-27T11:57:00.000+08:00

eeeeeeee.
OHMYGAWD.
latercomebackthanblog. =P.

2005-02-26T01:53:00.000+08:00

18 for 1week liaoo.
loll. lifestyle still samee. (what change do i expect? xD.)
ohh. mush wait forr jame's bdayy.
go CB. hehh. =P .

hmmmm..
went for VB practical todayy.
didnt even do anything there. just serving around.
loll.
lecturer saw le say "wahh. u relac arhh."
loll.
she wished me luck for 2mr's interview.
hehh. thks .

went for OPSY lesson .. SLEEP ! =p.
passed up the OPSY project. 3/4 donee.
aaa. ackk'. i seriously hope i pass the interview.
abo HO SEH liaoo. loll.

after school supposed to go NETF lecturer de house.
but in the end i n wilson lazy to go. hee.
went down cini to meet wilson's fren than go playy dota.
wahh diu. 3hr30mins $9. exp siaa. cheese -_-".
they put the $2.50 charge so small. kono yaro. =P .

after that don't know go where eat dinner lehh.
walked out of cini.. than walked backk again.
decided to eat the jap tingyy beloww.
Teriyaki Chicken Ommelate. weee. yummyumm. =p.

wahhh! so manyy ahbengg todayy lehh.
cyreel n howard. =X. saw both of themm 1 after another.
loll.
so longg nv see cyreel le. BEAR BEAR ~
still as cute ~ wahahah. =P .

eat finish le also dont know go where , do what.
walk walk walk .. until the singtel beside paragon.
there got some free key opening tingy.
than wilson n fren ask got thing do boh.
obviously dont have.
than dey say eh. go try leh.
WAH ehh. SIBEI malu. LMAO.
1st time i doin' dis kinda charbor tingg. eeee >.<.

in the end after awhile also go home le.
wahh. tired on the bus wor.
but reach home liaoo nt tired le.
bwahahah.

meetin' chunwei 2mr morning 1st.
aaa. GOOD LUCK JREN.
wahahah.
-prayssss-

yawnnss.

2005-02-25T00:37:00.000+08:00

YAWNN. woke up at 2pm todayy.
didnt go school.
cause only got netf n elective.
B-O-R-I-N-G.
found out that congg buddy oso din go school.
eeeeeee.
rottin' at homee.
so boreddd.
nothin' to do.
wahahahah.
2mr .. 8.30 school. wth. >.< yawnns. yeay. i won $40 ytd cos barce won. using it to dye ma hair. BE ELECTRIFIED. xD. -gone-

haha... i aint bothered as much as i was.
but i guess i still do . alil bit ..
moving .... still moving .

2005-02-24T01:44:00.000+08:00

tired tired tired.
came home early todayy than juz slept away my dayy.
3pm sleep until 8pm.
woke up at 8 n i tot it was early morning already. hahas.
blurrr miee.

aaa .
soccer tonite againn.
barce please winn. >.<. guess 2mr gonna be another sleepin' dayy againn. weee .. yawnn.. 1hr30mins moree.

it aint easy. im trying.
hope u're really happy wiv him now.

2005-02-23T02:45:00.000+08:00

eeee. todayy again only go school for awhile.
loll. only opsy n ideas nia.
after tat i n shin didnt go to vb.
went home n slpp. TIRED. loll.
i lazy to blog today sia. dono whyy.

so darn hot. wait for bus until i look like jus bathe finish.
diuuu. hmmmmm.
not slpping yet lehh. 45mins more to my soccerr matchh.
wahahah.
yawnnss ........

2005-02-21T20:28:00.000+08:00

went school for vb lesson only.
during break went fc6 eat.
LOL.
so zun. they choose the seat right infront of s.p n frens.
wahahah.
she dao siaa. go off le oso nv sayy bye.
mus i say. LOL.
dora allowed the few of us to skip her lesson n go do CIP.
wohh. i simply love her to the max. xD.
went to AMK to do my CIP.
the home was kinda ulu.
okk la.
went there to accompany old folks play chinese chess.
WTH lor. kena trash until gao gao. lmaoo.
than around 5 liddat leave for home liaoo.
on the way home keep disiao valerie siaa.
bth myself. =X.
don't feel like bloggin' too much though.
headache.
its the power of not havin' enuff slpp n all. loll.
DOTA SOMMORE. xD.

aaa.
todayy nt a bad dayy.
those ppl that were wiv me shd noe.
lollll. = P.
ciaoooo.

2005-02-21T00:42:00.000+08:00

mmmm.
just got back home not long ago.
met JH n went down atrium.
claimed my $10.
than the counter lady keep lookin at the tapz card foto n me.
i was like .. WTF. i know i look cuter now.
how can u not recognise. LOL. xD.

played afew games wiv SHINI sensei.
hahahaa. good ones ~
aaaa. can break akagi up to 2"27"7xx today.
but everytime screw up.
ohwell. not much into chionging nowadays.

aftertat went up to watch constantine.
before tat went carefour to buy food.
every1's food was safely in.
MINE WAS CONFISCATED. EEEK.
how could theyy .. of all people.
ahsad use daren's TSHIRT to cover also nv tell me.
diuu. =p.

alas went to watch the movie .. uhhhh.
okk okk lo. 6/10 bahh. hahaaa.
than finish show james went off soon le.
coz must book in by 9pm.
walked to parklane .
ate MAC for dinner..
than went to dota away my night.

hmmm. many more things to learn.
have patience . =x.
mum wanted me to call her to fetch me.
but i only went home at about like 11.30.
din want her to travel all the way down.
in the end didnt call her.
came home kena scolding.
haii.
dono why went she ask me why din call her.
i suddenly dono wat to say.
zzz.. SORRY MUM. T.T .

oyasumii nasaii.

mm.. i still feel for u.
hope he treats u with all he has.
yapp.
gettingg over .. trying !

2005-02-20T12:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ~

Birthday Resolution : BE MORE SENSIBLE ! =p.

2005-02-20T02:09:00.000+08:00

WOH. im ............ 18 LIAO.
legally alcoholic , smoke , club.
LOL. cool ehh.
18 really new landmark.
phucking be more sensible please.
= P .

todayy tot meeting them at 3.
in the end dey changed time le i oso dono.
woke up at 2.30 i tot late liaoo kin chiong.
loll.
in the end saw JH der den he told me.
aaa. but nvm. accompanied him to return joy something.
went over to JL's home. woo . HAPPY CNY~ xD.

than the bunch of us head down to Alex's house le.
had fun there.
ummm. fun as in .. GAMBLING. eeek. WTF.
its BAD ! xD. won... $6 from daren. =X.
wanted to catch a midnight movie ..
but all fully booked. geee.

around ... 11.50 left for home le.
wohh. the 1st thing i did in my 18th year ..
RUNNING FOR A BUS. diuu.
hmmm. yeay. felt the breezeeeeee.
breezee awayy from the past. =)).

took bus downn to suntec ..
waited for daren's dad to come fetch us.
thanks worr. =p.
hmmm. thats about it. goingg out 2mr.

ehhh.. nth liaoo . loll. nite.

u're still in my mind ..
but ..
im trying to move on le. yeapp..

2005-02-19T14:33:00.000+08:00

going alex's house todayy.
family gatheringg. "NY3OC" loll.
mmm. just woke upp sia.
gotta meet them at 3pm.
i better get going.

mm ..
9hrs 30mins to 18 .
haaa .

2005-02-18T17:57:00.000+08:00

went to lasalle with stephh buddy , theo n terry.
the current campus is kinda old n ran down .
but it kinda gives the comfy feelingg.
its a total changed environment from poly.
speaked about the course i was interested in with the lecturers.
wohhh. they were dressed kinda style.
simply nt like lecturers. gee.
anywayy , doesnt matter about its old campus.
its moving to the "State-Of-The-Art" Campus end of '06.
really is state of the art siaa. wahahah.

registered for the interview.
gonna be held next saturdayy.
gotta get ready my portfolio n all.
hmm yes.
i'll really like to fulfill my designing ambitions there.
but theres still this bit of holding backk.
the people in poly that i've knew.
maybe .. its just another part of life ..?
met chunwei there. brought me around the campus.
nice cosy surroundings in class.
just right for deep tots for inspirations.
everything is set there for me.
guess i've gotta make the very last decision.
the very least .. after next saturday's interview.

went backk home alone from PS.
the campus was located at kallang.
had to take bus to PS den changed back to BP.

ohwell ..
as we grow up things start to be up fast n comming.
be it in an hour , a day , or a year.
2 more days to 18. another new mark.
please be more sensible ..
don't repeat anymore mistakes made from the past.
from '04.

im tired. guess its time to pen down.
goodtime peeps.

WoBuYuanFangQi QueYaoGuYiMuoMuoYunXu..

2005-02-18T09:27:00.000+08:00

bloggin during VB practical nw.
lecturer going through assignment.
mmm..
heading lasalle with stephh buddy laterr.
gonna find out more about that college.
WOHH. college sehh. sounds....... xD.

read back many past posts ..
my own .. n those of you peeps outt there.
what happened within the pass year ..
iv learnt alot .. really alot ..
the lesson i've learnt .
most probably is gonna be carried with me for a longlong time.
the mistakes i made ..
haha .. fills me with regrets.
guess its really a very huge lesson learnt. really HUGE.
i don't wish to give any words here.
people .. or maybe myself often wont be able to keep it.
anyway . i've really got burnt real bad.
for once , i admit im really afraid of doing the mistake againn.
mistakes made in 2004. huge lesson learnt.
ohwell ..
just doing some self reflectionn over what has happened.
haha..

ohh. i really appreciated all those guyss.
the criticisms received by me from them.
i admit i didnt like them .. but hey .
haha .. at least i do have the calibre in their heart to make them criticise me.
loll . i deserved it anywayy. Thanks guys.

2 people i would really like to single outt ..
are Junhong aka TMR n Andrew aka Z.
tmr .. ahaa. no needa sayy what he's done.
both of us are practically the same ?
did the same things for each other? gee. = P .
Andrew. yeay , sometimes i do find your advises abit not for me.
but i know that its for my own good.
haha. some words said may be abit crude
but i guess its just the way making us wake up n realise its the real world we're living in.
the advises given to me was hell of a chunk.
aaaa. didnt really totally take them into consideration at that very time ..
yar. TOTALLY . =P .
looking backk at the very last post of the blog..
kinda made me reflect. haha .

hmm ya. longg post.
2004 over .. Mistakes Made .. Criticisms Received .. Huge Lesson Learnt.
thks every1 out there for every comment n advises given.
hell NO SELF BURNING AGAIN. =P .
ciaoo.

2005-02-18T01:19:00.000+08:00

Chotto dake tsuyogatte hitorikiri.

2005-02-18T00:56:00.000+08:00

hahahah.
just came backk not longg ago.
celebrated SJ's bdayy.

mm.
today's school ?
as usual , kinda boringg.
went clementi wiv shin,wilson,chris n allen during breakk.
after netf shin,chris n myself was just slacking in fc4.
sleepingg. =p .
i was like wearing jacket da whole dayy.
haha . im sick ~ = P .

after elective took bus down to town wiv chris.
he alighted before me at far east.
mm. usual .. went down to atrium to meet da rest.

wooo. sj presents many many. ahaaa.
went to wanton mee to eat wanton mee. xD .
din go backk atrium after that
JH,shiro,jim,daren,sj n myself went parklane.
aaa. lan ! play lag free com so songg. lmaoo.

wooo . played till like 11.10 than went home le.
n yeay. now im home blogging.
heading to lasalle open house 2mr.
considering a transfer over.
yeapp .
ciaooo.

JueKouBuTiHaiAiNi..

2005-02-17T08:46:00.000+08:00

wohh.
gonna get going to school soon.
gotta go celebrate sj's bdayy todayy.
ahaa.
happy 17th bday girl. =)) ~

aaa.
school ends at 4.30 . aiks. >.<
cyaa peeps 2nite !
wahahah.

silently..

2005-02-16T17:49:00.000+08:00

DAMN ! wat a good day today is.
hahahah.

i guess today's webp paper was the only paper
that can bring me hope of an A.
kinda "user frenly" paper.

n than its OPSY.
another "user frenly" paper.
finished it in like .. 20mins ?
the invagilator called us to count sheeps.
i n wilson was like counting out.
he said 1 .. i said 2.. n so on.
hahah. waddahell!

mm. dora treated us to a movie at tbp.
nice treat there. thks dora.

mm. guess iv gotten over it~
so... YEAY. don't bother about that issue anymore!
wahahah. its OVER ! =DD.

this overdue love still exists ...
in silence ..

2005-02-16T00:55:00.000+08:00

din go school todayy . no paperr .
slept at ........ around 6am ytd.
woke up at 5pm .
WOH . so long nv so late wake up liaoo .
ehh no . actually is 10am .
just to sms her goodluck n remember to wake up?
ahaa . din get any reply anyway . expected.
mm . stupid me.

din really do much the whole dayy.
just stay at home play dota.
mm . stopped le .
so bored . never study at all .
weee .
mmm..

i cant believe im blogging in dis manner .
its been a long time . WOHH . = P .

my 1st resolution in 4days is ..
to do something about this ting i cant get over.
guessed it right . its her .
okk pens down .

ja .

2005-02-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

WAHAHAHA .
IT'S THE LAST MINUTE OF VDAY .
yeay . im sooooo soooo happy on vday .
im really sooo darn happy .
u really fucking believe that ?
mm . yarr . sorry . im just retarded .

what a dayy .
had tests all the way till 5pm .
listened to Li Sheng Jie's - Shou Fang Kai the whole DARN day .
passed her the stars i made ....
anyway i guess it means nth to her . most prob just a normal gift .
silly me . guess i just love to be a fool . WAHAHAHA .
YES ~ ITS FUN . WOOO ~
sorry . retarded again .

i stood by n watched .. in school , on the way to ps , on the way home .
the flowers all the bfs were holding for their gfs .
how sweet . they had the chance to . wish these couples all the best ..
haha .. hell , i don't even have a chance to have a chance .
get what i mean ? =/ .

shin had a date today with his soon to be girlfren .
he rushed the whole day just to get roses for her .
hmm . yar . i felt jealous . i really envied him .
he reminded me .. of myself .
just 2weeks before this day .
i was rushing all around the flower shops .
to search for lavender flowers .. afraid that i couldnt get it on time for this day .
i looked back at myself the whole day . the things i planned to say .
her favourate flowers i planned to give .
the places in which i planned to spend time with her .
everything just disappeared .. in .. 2days ? haa ..

really wasnt in the mood the whole day .
im feeling fucked .
why do i always stumble when i see her .
argh .
damn wake up your idea .
everything is over .
just like this day is gonna be .
stop being weak .
look at your darn blog .
look at yourself .
its still this deep hole that you are in ,
when she's already up n out far away .
am i really trying .. or am i trying not to try ..

i just wanna 4get her . but .. i really just 4got how to .

2005-02-13T19:55:00.000+08:00

stayed at home the whole dayy .
didn't step outta house at all .
test starts tommorrow .
haven touched my textbook at all ..
but guess im gonna start later bah .
she's studyin now i guess ?
add oil bah .. dun stress too much .
nothing much to say here .
Kh going over my place soon .

8pm .. 4hrs to v.day ?
what could have been ..
should have been ..
would have been ..

give us abit more time ..
we could have made it ..
things may turn out fine ..
we could live it out together .
i believe . i still believe ..

2005-02-12T23:44:00.000+08:00

boring day .
slept last nite at 7AM . after playin' dota wiv shiro .
din know that the sky is already bright . gee .
woke up around 1.30 .
vehh little ppl went down atrium today .
i was the only 1 from bp going down .
went down alone ..

did nothing much there .
bored ..
just waited for the match to start .
hmm . i lost . that was like only my 2nd time using S15 on that map . 0.o " .
sorry .
after that asked shiro to accomapny me to PS to find my thing .
searched the WHOLE ps oso cant find .
than i decided to go Suntec . searched the WHOLE Suntec n WHOLE CityLink.
finally managing to find what i wanted to buy .
tired tired tired .. legs became wobbly .

later on went home alone .
sighh . the time i went home was like .. the time she finished work ?
it used to be the time i left atrium to sembawang/yishun ?
i would always want to accompany her cos dont wish her to go home alone .
im still willing to . sighh ..
i practically pass by her estate every weekend night .
but the difference is it isnt with her . its myself alone ..

CNY festive period gonna be over soon .
next up is 14/2 ? valentines day ?
haa ... ... ...

im still existing for her .
i am ... i still am ..

2005-02-12T00:54:00.000+08:00

went down atrium today with JH n SJ .
took cab to lot1 .
the damn taxi driver drive 1 big round than tell me don't know howda go lot1 -_-" .
took mrt to clementi to meet the 2 of them . just slack around at atrium doing nothing .
what more to say .. uhh .
just played xbox the whole day la har . boring .
got s15 match 2mr . wish me luck . =/.
mm .. haven been slping much these few nights .
my sleeping time is like 4am - 5am .
got headache these 2 days .
sighh ..

don't know why don't feel like blogging much also .

it's gonna be like 2weeks already .
i seriously am still missing her alot .
yarrr ..

if she's reading this . pls know that ..
my existance is still there for you ..

2005-02-11T01:11:00.000+08:00

didn't do any visiting today .
went to sentosa with mummy auntie n couz .
anyway i didnt have anywhere to go either .
boring boring boring ..
went over to pasta mania to dine later on .
had a plate of garlic bread , 1 reg. pizza n 1 crayfish pasta .
big appetite . 55kg .. ? think she doesnt bother about it anymore either ..

David Foster - Hard To Say Im Sorry

Everybody needs a little time away
i had to say .. from each other .
even lovers need a holiday .
away , from each other ..

hold me now
its hard for me to say im sorry
i just want you stay ..

after all that u've been through
i will make it up to u
i promise u .
n after all thats been said n done
you are just a part of me i cant make up ..

i dont wana be swept away
all the way from the one that i love
hold me now .. its hard for me to say im sorry
i just want you to know ..
hold me now .. i really wana tell you im sorry
i could never let you go .

after all the u've been through
i will make it up to u .
i promise to .
n after all thats been said n done
your just a part of me i cant make up ..

2005-02-09T23:24:00.000+08:00

everything is so different this CNY .
couldn't go visiting .
i mean .. whats CNY without visiting .
n furthermore , u guys u shd noe whats the other reason .

woke up around noon time n headed over to granny's home
for mee sua session . stayed there quite awhile than headed
to auntie's home .
stayed there for a short time than my couz send me
down to city hall to meet KH .
first time sitting his rx8 .
din know howda open the back door . gee . ps .
nice nice car . -drools-

i was like wondering when i reached city hall ..
why the hell am i here on the FIRST day of CNY .
n all the shops were like closed . wth .
initially wanted to get something , but couldnt . z .
went to carefour bought some stuff n juz sat outside suntec .
i think sit there for like 1hr+ .
walked from suntec to PS .
talked alot .. really alot ..
mostly about me i guess .
thanks for listening to me .. =)) ..

where would u find such a FIRST day of CNY ?
its like my 1st ever spending it like this .
walking all around orchard doing nothing .
thinking about things im stuck with ..

another day has passed .

you made my existance .. im still existin becos of that reason .

2005-02-08T21:38:00.000+08:00

Gundam Seed Destiny (First Ending) - Nami Tamaki - Reason .

tooku hanareteru hodo ni chikaku ni kanjiteru
samishisa mo tsuyosa eto kawatteku... kimi wo omottanara
setsunaku mune wo sasu sore wa yume no kakera
arinomama deaeteta sono kiseki mou ichido shinjite

kimi ga inai hibi ni zutto tachitomatta
demo arukidashiteru
kimi to wakachiatta dono guuzen nimo imi ga
sou kanarazu atta

sorezore no yume wo kanaete mata meguriau toki
guuzen wa unmei ni naru

yabureta yakusoku sae mo chikai ni kaetanara
ano basho de deau toki ano koro no futari ni nareru kana?
"yasashisa" ni niteiru natsukashii omokage

asu ni hagurete kotae ga nanimo mienakute mo
kimi ni au sono tame ni kasaneteku "kyou" to iu shinjitsu

Translation.

The further we are apart, the nearer I feel you are.
Even my loneliness turns into strength... when I think of you.
The thing that pierces the gentle chest, that's a fragment of my dream.
The miracle that is our chanced meeting, believe in it once more.

In the days without you, I've stopped moving.
But now I am walking out of here.
All the coincidences we shared, certainly
They all have their meanings.

When our dreams comes true one by one, and we meet again,
The coincidences become fate.

If even the torn promises can change into vows,
Can we also change back to the two of us from the time we met at that place?
The dear faces that resemble "kindness".

Even if I can't see the astrayed answers tomorrow,
I carry the truth known as "today" in order to meet you.

2005-02-08T21:26:00.000+08:00

back from my dinner at granny's home .
looking at all my cousins ..
the oldest in which is just sec3 .
the youngest which is like 2 ?
they crave for nothing else other than fun .
they are all easily satisfied .
but more or less .. they would only be happy when they have what they wants .
it's just like the faded me .
i don't ask for money . neither good health . neither good results .
it's just .. that very person that im asking for .

it's new years eve . this year just seemed to be different for me .
i can't celebrate CNY cos my granddad passed away last year .
n she isnt there to share this festive mood with me either ..

maybe i really don't know howda take care of myself ?
maybe thats why i need some1 to be there for me .

Anywayy , Happy CNY to all .
may all dreams come true ..
n maybe .. mine .. ? HAHA ...
what a joke ..

2005-02-08T13:59:00.000+08:00

just came backk from ma secondary school .
so many people have changed .
slept at 5am woke up at 8am .
cool ehh .
drop dead tired . gotta go catch some slp .

im still trying to get out of this deep hole iv dropped into
that was made by her .
why can't i still find my way up when she's already up ontop
and walking away .
maybe she would come back to lift me outta this hole ?
HAHAHA . wishful thinking .
jren u stupid fool .

when can i find the light ..

GONE SLEEPING .
DISTURB N I'LL RIP U APART .

2005-02-08T05:09:00.000+08:00

Am i supposed to be happy that she ain't bothering about me ???
MMM . YESS . I SHOULD !!
LAUGH ~ IT'S NEW YEAR ~
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what the phuck man .
it's 5am in the morning n im blogging .
i just bought a purple TEE from ma SHOP today .
u peeps shd know whats a MOOMOO shop .
i spent like say $180 in afew days ?
gee . what a way to indulge myself n 4get about things i don't wana be thinking about .
but at the end of the day everything goes back to normal .

whats with the
"dont cry becos it's over , smile becos u had it once."
lol . screw this crap .

okk . im sounding crude here on CNY eve .
but .. i guess what happend made me so .
i deserved all this shiet anyway ..

i exist only to love myself n hate all other beings ..
this is starting to take over me .
sigh .

2005-02-07T13:38:00.000+08:00

i haven been dreamin at all .
since the time she said i would have 3 dreams within 1 and a half hrs .
i didn't wished to dream about her ..
i didn't want to .

but screw it , i really didn't know why i did .
it made me wake up with tears in my eyes .
i dreamt that we were back together ..
but when i woke up i found that it was all a dream .
i really cant help it . i really cant ..
i haven been crying since wednesday .
i just cant stop when i realise that everything was just a dream .
im all alone at home now . with no1 to talk to .
im just crying to myself . why .

almost 1week has passed ..
was that 1week we spent together really so vague ..?
im really willing to exchange anything to get back those moments .
even if its just for 1 day .
i've let myself down .. for being so weak after she's left ..
doesn't she remembers that i've told her before ..
she is the only weakside in me .

2005-02-07T13:35:00.000+08:00

Blue - If You Come Back

For all this time

i've been loving you girl .

and ever since the day you left me here alone

i've been trying to find

oh the reason why

so if i did someting wrong

please tell me i wana understand

coz i dont want this love to ever end

i swear

if you come back in my life

baby , till the end of time ..

n i swear

i'll keep you right by my side

coz baby you're the 1 i want

oh yes u are .

i watched you go

taking my heart with you ..

oh yes u did .

and everytime i try to reach you on the phone

baby you're never there .

girl you're never home ..

so if i did something wrong

please tell me ,

i wana understand

coz i dont want this love to ever end .

i swear

if you come back in my life

baby , till the end of time .

and i swear

i'll keep you right by my side

coz baby you're the 1 i want .

oh yes you are .

maybe i didn't know

how to show it ..

n maybe i didn't know

what to say ..

this time i won't disguise

than we can build our lifes

than we can be as one .

n i swear if you come back in my life

baby , till the end of time .

n i swear , i'll keep you right by my side ,

coz baby you're the 1 i want .

oh yes u are ..

2005-02-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

just came backk home say 45mins ago .
went down town with JH .
originally intended to get the tshirt today .
in the end too late . so guess it's 2mr .

had quite a number of games with alex today .
nice games .
n yarr , happy 19th birthday .
have a good trip overseas .

am i sounding normal talking like this ?
seriously it's hard to pretend .
im laughing . im smiling . but is it really me .
i doubt so .
if i told u i was alright , would u believe ?

i tried not to think .
about the pain i feel inside .
did you know you used to be my dream .

all the days u spent with me
now seems so far away
and it seems like you dont care anymore .

and now i try hard to make it ,
i just wana make you proud .
im never gonna be good enuff for you .
i can't stand another fight
n nothing's alright ..

2005-02-06T02:24:00.000+08:00

usual dayy down at atrium .
gc8v happo outbound 2"23'4xx .
hmm . can get around 2"22'8xx . aaa . soon .

indulging myself in spending money on material items n ID
is something to keep me busy n not think too much .
but its just for the moment .
everything reverts back soon after .

accompanied james over to heeren to do some shopping .
bought another bball band . BRIGHT PINK . aa yes .
comun gerls . don't u just agree PINK rawks .

spent quite sometime doing something today also .
reached the target i gave myself .

just reached home around 2 . aaa .
took cab home with JL , JH n his fren .
walked home myself from segar lrt .
thoughts thoughts thoughts .
what would have been ..
sighh .

yes . it's difficult . very difficult .
maybe if i really wished to just move on i could .
but .. i rather stay in this hot soup .
stubborn ? yap . cos it's her .

2005-02-05T13:09:00.000+08:00

it was my own mistake right from the beginning .
up till now ..
i deserve this pain ..

i hear you are taking the town again
having a good time with all your good time friends .
i don't that you think of me ,
you are on your on now
n i am home n free
i noe that i should get on with my life
but a life lived without u could never be right .

i try to smile so the hurt won't show
tell everybody , i was glad to see you go .
but the tears just won't go away
my weakness found me .
looks like it's here to stay .

2005-02-05T01:41:00.000+08:00

i have been wasting n spending all the money i kept for valentines day
for the past 3days .
i don't know any other ways to get rid of this sorrow .

there is . n thats to get over her . but im not prepared to do it anyday near .
went down to town with the guys . bought a new belt today . striking .
spent like say $150 at least ? anyway i aint got any valentine to go to .

can't control this feeling .
my head just kept itself low for the whole day .
i can't seem to lift it up .
i don't want to look up and not see her walking beside me .

spent $20 on ID today after 2weeks .
first $10 were just all rubbish .
spent that just to frustrate myself .

i laugh . i smile .
but im crying inside .
guess i enjoy being a fool here myself .

a question was thrown to me today ..

friend : why must u be like this sia ?
me : why not ?
friend : don't u just feel that it's so hard for you ?
me : yar . it's really hard for me . but i still want to do it .
friend : give up n don't be so stubborn .
me : i don't mind playing the fool . its for her . i love her .

really thank this friend for your concern .
but im sorry to let u down .
im stubborn cause its her ..

2005-02-03T18:13:00.000+08:00

2nd of febuary just passed .
6mths since the date we started ..
what would it have been if i hadn't made a rash and stupid decision right than .
why did i leave her when i still loved her than .

argh .
there wasnt much difference between yesterday and today .
the only differences were i went to school with a half swalloned eye .
after yesterday ..
and at least managing to keep the tears within my heart .

she seemed to be backed to her normal self .
i guess im just being a fool here all by myself .
but what am i to do when i really knew i couldn't lose her for a second time .

why does my heart ache so so much over some1 that has totally gotten over me .
guess it's just because i just love her that much .
been finding people to accompany mi in the night .
but it just isn't the same ..
im just too used to listening to her voice everynight before i sleep .

everything seems to be gone .
is it really just gonna end this way ..

i don't know if she visits my blog .
but if she really does . im still gonna tell her ..
i'm persistant ..
persistant because i've already lost you once before .
persistant because you're just the girl that i love .

why can't i find my smile back ..

2005-02-02T20:14:00.000+08:00

i couldnt smile right from morning till now .
i couldn't laugh . i couldn't feel a single joke .
i couldn't feel happy even after i bought my shoe .
wherever i went she just appears in my mind .

i couldn't stop myself from crying in school .
i couldnt stop myself from crying on the way home .
i couldn't stop myself from crying right this moment .
i tried . i really tried to control .
i just couldn't .
tears just rolled down whenever i think about her .

i don't blame her at all .
it isn't her fault .
i just hate myself .
i just hate myself for causing myself to be in this state .
how can i ever let her know how much i really love her .

i've lost her once before .
i realised just how important she is to me .
i just couldn't bear to see her leave me again .
i just wish to fuck myself up .
i hate myself . i really hate myself .

it doesn't matter just how many girls will pass .
the person that i want is just her .
why can't she understand .

my eyes hurt .
but i just cant stop tearing .

2005-02-02T02:03:00.000+08:00

lonelylove.ilostmybride

2005-02-01T21:00:00.000+08:00

its 9pm .
wonder how's queenie now .
missing her .
thinking about her . .

2005-02-01T19:12:00.000+08:00

umm .
was rushing our ideas project all dayy long .
couldn't help it .

during ideas class allen brought his digicam .
wilson n i were like taking snaps here n there .
hmm . crazyy .
everyone got scolded by the ideas lecturer as the class was too noisy .
it wasnt mie though ..

went for break at fc6 .
aaa . the bunch of us were like folding stars again .
finally learnt it totally todayy . after so many failures .
everyone was like looking at this table of guys folding stars . gee .
my hand was kinda like aching ..

finished the very last of the available prac. in vb .
didn't have anything to do after that .
just served around the net . test is comming .. *prays*

wanted to wait for queenie as i had my project too .
but hmm .. she's going home with her classmate todayy .
ohwell . please take care ya ?

another hot dayy on my way home .
or was it becos i was wearing my jacket ? *slaps*
ain't doing nothing at this moment ..
wonder how is queenie doing .
haven seen her for the whole dayy ..
im like .. missing her alot . =/ ..

hmm . queenie , i may not be the best bf around .
but at least i can say proudly .. u make mi feel the best .
not becos i am 1 . but becos , your presence makes mie feel like the best ..

-bloggoff-

2005-01-31T20:36:00.000+08:00

monday blues .

hot hot hot dayy . bad hair day ?
hmmm . mann . i feel so darn wierd wiv this hair .
imma nerd from now on .

boring dayy . usual things in school . hmm .
learnt to make stars wiv straws todayy from howard .
made 2 for queenie . ermm .
don't know if its acceptable ..
anywayy that its the 1st time i ever made a star .
made it for queenie . yapp ..

I've got something to sayy .
yapp . its to queenie .

i guess i aint perfect myself .
but u make feel like i am , for the moments when i'm with u .
i mean it ..
=)) .

2005-01-30T19:11:00.000+08:00

went jean yip to cut my hair todayy .
the service was good .
was even given a cup of tea . loll .

aaa . gonna go re-dye ma hair soon too .
gotta go fetch queenie from work later .
hope she doesnt NOT recognise her "new" king .
xD .

be back later ~
ciaoo .

LOLL . the backk of ma new hairr . xD .
i look like a certified nerd from da front ! xD .

2005-01-30T01:49:00.000+08:00

(oo)" zzz .

TIRED !!!

loll . lazy to blogg . 1 word sums it all .

enjoyed a romantic dinner with da guys . xD .
thanks daren and ryo for the treat . -winks-

yawnss . gonna get ma shoe this comming week !
yeay .
okk .
-gone-

2005-01-28T23:39:00.000+08:00

MMM ! YES ! MMM !

loll . wahh ahh . i must PRAISE queenie todayy .
wake up early to accompany mie to school .
hahas . thanks ^^* .

she also wanted to print her assignment in school .
but we reached school so early .
went to vb class to put down bag first n get plaster for her .
queenie mind ur leg ya ! =)) .

accompanied her till 8.30 than went back class le .
ma class suppose to start at 8 ~ loll . but nah , nvm . ^^V .
aaa . had to find some excuse to tell ma lecturer . loll .
outta class for so long . just told her had some assignments to submit . *gee .

vb prac so bored ! talking away with shin and howard . xD . shhh .
after that went up to OPSY lecture . lalala .
after lecture end the lecturer call my name .
"jerren , you can go home and sleep now ~"
DAHAHA . so .. can roughly guess what i did during class ? =X .
oPpPssssssssss ..

finish school already went with charles to t4 for my gem .
awww . got test today . din know . wahahaa .
but umm . i guess can pass bah . same to queenie ! =)) .
after gems went over to fc5 to accompany her .
aaaa . queenie is a greedy (oo)" todayy . shhh . =p .

left for t2 with her at around 5 for her test .
while waiting for her friends she was bitten by the notti mosquitoes .
eeek ! bite ma queenie . im gonna swear to open a Mosquitoe Killin' Company next time . =X .
(queenie eat too muchh sweets . blood to sweet .) xD . OH NO . MMM ! Kidding . xD .

she came out at around 5.45 .
than we took da train to JE . but couldnt decide where to head to . arhhh .
in the end we went to causeway point . loll !
walked n walked . talked n talked . ate n ate (DAHAHA.) xD .

than went SHOPPING at COLD STORAGE .
wahh ahh . but lucky i was there .
chocolate chocolate chocolate . =p .

k la har ~ after that went home from der le .
queenie say i kept making her lauf on da lrt .
eee . my fault again . loll . xD .
reaching her stop le her boss gave her a call .
awww . queenie's mood dipped abit .
>.< ..
*pokes queenie* smilee ! =)) .

*gee .
waiting to call her .
-bounces around-

2005-01-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

Twins & Boyz - Si Xing Bu Gai

gee . i love this canto songg . wahaaa . xD .
chris sorry arhh , use your ipod so long todayy . >.< !

wahh . today was the last day to do our IWGD project .
as usual . everyone was RUSHING . loll .
is this part of poly life ?!?! haha .

actually wana go school with queenie todayy .
but she want mie to sleep more . awww .. tsk tsk .
aaa . was late to school myself .
but hey , wasnt my fault ya .
the train died out when i was at the station . -_- "

first lesson CD . slack forever ! forever slack ! whatever . xD .
as always finished early . and i meant EARLY ..
went to fc4 to EAT . YES .. i said EAT ! you didn't see wrongly !
wahahaaaaaa .
borrowed chris's ipod and listen all the way until end of NETF lecture .
oPpPsssssss ..

after that nothing muchie to sayy liaoo .
after school is all the wayy IWGD project le !
finished with mine in school .
queenie gotta get home to finish hers .
just finished helping her with her report .

damn . friendster just hate mie don't they .
loll . for the second time my a/c was gone .
created a new 1 AGAIN today . -_-" .
COMUN GUYS ! Add mie backk ! xD .

hmm . queenie , jiaa youuuu !
30mins more to 11 !
you can de ! ^^V .

2005-01-26T22:00:00.000+08:00

(oo)"

arhhhh !! looks like i cant live without afternoon naps already . eeeek . xD .
meet queenie todayy . opps . my turn late . hehe . xD .
wahhh .. don't know why , our class go school like never go .
loll . =x .

but ahh 1 good thing is . todayy webp , i got listen to lesson SIA . WOOHOO . xD .
than OPSY tutorial as usual , must answer question again .
than i was like playing with theo's hp .

the lecturer say "can u ans my question ? are u playing or smsing har ?"
i said "ohh . i playing wiv the hp ."
lecturer say "can pause awhile to ans my question ?"
i said "kk ~ no prob ."
-pause-
i said "anyway i also don't know the answer , paisye . i go back play my game liao ."
wahahahaaaaa . xD .

than break time buy drink for queenie kena scolded sia .
the stupigg auntie . EEE . bully me . LOL . xD .

after that networking lecture we went in 10mins only than go out liaoo .
went out to kaypo the talent-time thingy . slowly every1 oso come out . xD .
hmmm . got 1 guy dare to sing jay's song sia . -WORSHIPS-
got balls ! wahaha . but .. singing can improve alot la har . xD .

weee .
after school went spgg with wilson,allen n shin to play billiard/pool .
siann . so long neber play already . hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm .
after that went t20 to find queenie n her friends ..
do GIF of course . (DUH)
than went home le .

aaa . todayy king n queen got chicken fever . WAHAHA .
queen craved for popcorn CHICKEN in school .
king ate CHICKEN nuggets after school .
queen craved for CHICKEN rice in lrt . *opps . =p .

ohhh no no . queenie became my lil' sista today . LOL ! *shhh .

*gonee .

2005-01-25T23:24:00.000+08:00

wohoho .
supposed to meet queenie at 7.45am ~
reminded me dono how many times laz nite dun late . =X .
in the end .. xD ~
lalalala .

wahh hmm . after queenie went to her class i just went to stone at the foodcourt
yawnnn ~

OPSY lecture the whole bunch of us just walked outta class for a soya bean session .
LOL ! lecturer ask mie where i going . i never ans . =X . never hear la .. xD !

aaaaa . then IDEAS finish 1hour earlier . WTH ! so free . nth to do .
went to watch that mini talent time thingy . boring arh . xD .

yeay ! i ate something todayy during break today okiee .

anyway , queenie's spy was slacking today . muz spank spank . xD !

during whole VB prac. we doing the animated GIF sia . LOL ..
after school finish went to accompany queenie n fatin to do their gif .
wahh ahh . we had a BUSY time finding computers to use NOE . loll .

so tiredd arhh . almost dozing off . lalalaaa ..
hmm . this week superr busyy with the IWGD stuff .

GAMBATTE queenie ! u got alot of potential IDEAS ! loll ~
implement them on your gif hor ! xD .

tata !

2005-01-24T18:08:00.000+08:00

eeeek . 10am lesson today 10am than left home .
aaa . no no . to be exact 9.55 . xD .
reach der 15minss latee . LUCKY ! sheesh .

VB lecture ended late todayy .
was like 30mins . -_- " .
in the end didnt eat anything during break .
wahhh . i think im gonna disappear soon .
i aint some fatso that's on diet . loll .

finish webp so early todayy .
was waitin' ferr ma dearest gurl to finish her lesson .
stayed in the lab to start kickin on my gif !
woo .. how to describe mine ?
perfection in simplicity ? LOLL . xD .
gonna continue 2mr . better finish it fasttt !

okkayss .
here i am at home after sending herr homee .
im tired .. gotta slpp soon ~
BUT .. let me eat 1st .
i aint gonna live with an empty stomach till dinner . = P .

ooo .. ciao peeps .

2005-01-23T15:11:00.000+08:00

this time will never end .
=)) .

2005-01-23T01:54:00.000+08:00

if ever your in my arms again ..
this time i'll love u forever ..
if ever your in my arms again ..
this time i'll love u much better ..
this time .. will never end ..

2005-01-22T01:45:00.000+08:00

i miss you .
alot alot ...

2005-01-20T18:15:00.000+08:00

i lost it the moment .. i lost u .
im not afraid .. to receive critisisms .. to lose wealth .. to lose myself ..
but im most afraid .. to lose u againn .
i need u backk .. more than i need myself ..

i cried ..

2005-01-20T01:03:00.000+08:00

[12:09] ^WaitinG np : Jacky Cheung & Regina - In Love With You.mp3

seems that this song has 2 parts ..
the 1st part points to the time before they got back together ..
n the 2nd .. after they got back together ..

-1st Part-
Just a gentle whisper , told me that you're gone ..
Leaving only memories .. where did we go wrong ..
I Couldn't find the words then .. so let mi say dem now..
im still in love wiv u ..

tell me that u love me
tell me that u care
tell me that u need me
n i'll be der .. i'll be der waiting ..

i will always love you
i will always stay true
theres no1 who loves u like i do
come to me now ..

i will never leave u
i will stay here wiv u
through the good n bad i will stand true
im still in love .. wiv u ..

-2nd Part-

Now we're here together
Yesterday has passed
Life has just began
Close to u at last
And i promise to u
I will always be there
I give my all to u ..

Living life without u is more then i can bare ..
Hold me close forever ..
And I'll be there ..
I'll be there for you ..

I will always love u
I will always stay true
Theres no1 who loves u like i do
This i promise ..

I will never leave u
I will stay here wiv u
Through the good n bad i will stand true ..

Hold me closer ..
Our love is forever ..
Holding us together ..
Nothing in this world can stop us now ..

love has fall our way ..

please don't let me listen to the 2nd part alone ..

she doesnt come in my blog afterall ..

2005-01-18T22:33:00.000+08:00

[23:25] ^ np : Blue - If You Come Back

i swear
if you come back in my life
i'll be there 'til the end of time
and i swear
i'll keep you right by my side
'cos baby you're the one i want
oh yes you are

maybe i didn't know how to show it
maybe i didn't know what to say
this time i won't disguise
then we can build our lives
and we can be as one

i swear
if you come back in my life
i'll be there 'til the end of time
and i swear
i'll keep you right by my side
'cos baby you're the one i want
oh yes you are ..

are you listening .. ? -sighh.-

2005-01-17T23:39:00.000+08:00

A1 - One More Try

ould be ur eyes
could be your smile
could be the way u freed my mind
your precious touch , caressed my soul
you gave me everything i need
and now i'm lost , i'm lost forever ..

and u said this is going nowhere girl
and u said i turned my back on you
said i'm not the only one for u ..

plz give it one more try for the sake of our love
let's give it one more chance coz i can't give u up
i can't live one more day without u in my arms
i could never find another like u ..

could be the lies
could be my pride
could be the days and nights so wild
could be the times i wasn't there
and all the nights we didn't share
and now u're lost , lost forever ..

and u said this is going nowhere girl
and u said i turned my back on you
said i'm not the only one for u ..

plz give it one more try for the sake of our love
let's give it one more chance coz i can't give u up
i can't live one more day without u in my arms
i could never find another like u ..

i can't sleepi can't live without u by my side
so cold so lost without u as my guide
you made me realise i'm nothing
nothing without u ..

plz give it one more try for the sake of our love
let's give it one more chance coz i can't give u up
i can't live one more day without u in my arms
i could never find another like u ..

2005-01-17T01:51:00.000+08:00

[00:56] ^ np : Gareth Gates - Anyone Of Us (Stupid Mistake)

din do muchh todayy .
woke up .
stoned before my com the whole dayy .
completed my gem assignment .
watched eps 118 of naruto .
had dinner .
wrote some stuff .
ended my dayy .

-Chorus-

It can happen to any1 of us
Anyone u think of
Anyone can fail ..
Anyone can hurt someone they love
Hearts will break
Cause i made a stupid mistake ..

It can happen to anyone of us
Say u will forgive me
Anyone can fail ..
Say u will believe me
I can't take my heart will break ..
Cause i made a stoopid mistake ..

2005-01-16T02:03:00.000+08:00

alighted at the bus stopp after the highwayy .
went over to the coffee shop wiv JL n JH .
cant just stop myself from thinking . .

im wishing . .
hoping . .
sighh .

[02:00] ^ np : Rick Price - Heaven Knows.mp3

she's always on my mind
from the time i wake up
till i close my eyes
she's everywhere i go
she's all i know ..

though she's so far away
it just keeps getting stronger everyday
even now she's gone
i'm still holding on....

so tell me where do i start
cause its breaking my heart
dont wana let this end..

maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows ..
n maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows ..
n all i can do is hope and pray
cause heaven knows ..

my friends keep telling me
that if u really love her , u gotta set her free
if she returns in kind , i noe she's mine .
but tell me where do i start
cause its breaking my heart
don't wana let this end ..

maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows ..
n maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows ..
n all i can do is hope n pray ..
cause heaven knows ..

why i left in despair
cause when i go dreaming
i know she isn't there
n all the time i act so brave im shaking inside ..
why did it i let her go ..

maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows ..
n maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows ..
n all i can do is hope n pray ..
cause heaven knows ..

2005-01-14T17:16:00.000+08:00

[16:45] ^ np : Nsync - I Drive Myself Crazy.mp3

Lying in your arms
So close together
Didn't know just what i had ..

Now i toss n turn
Cause im without u
How im missing u so bad ..

Where was my head
Where was my heart
Now i cry .. alone in the dark ..

I lie awake
I drive myself crazy (drive myself crazy)
thinking of u ..

Made a mistake
when i let u go baby
i drive myself crazy
wanting u the way that i do ..

I was such a fool
I couldn't see it
Just good u were to me ..

You confessed ur love
Undying devotion ..

i confessed i wanted to be free
n now im left
wiv all this pain
iv only got myself to blame ..

I lie awake
I drive myself crazy (drive myself crazy)
Thinking of u ..

Made a mistake
Let u go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting u the way that i do ..

Why didnt i noe how much i love u , baby
Why didnt i show it , if i could only told u

i drive myself crazy (all so crazy ..)

ohhh ..

I lie awake
I drive myself crazy (drive myself crazy)
Thinking of u ..

Made a mistake
Let u go baby
I drive myself crazy ..
Wanting u the way that i do ..

//- sytoiull ..

2005-01-13T18:10:00.000+08:00

[17:33] ^ np : Peabo Bryson - If Ever Your In My Arms Again.mp3

It all came so easy
All the loving u gave me
The feelings were shared ..

And i still can remember
How u touched me so tender
It told mi u cared ..

We had a once in a lifetime
But i just couldnt see until it was gone
A 2nd once in a lifetime
Maybe too much to ask
But i swear from now on ..

If ever your in my arms again
This time i'll love u much better
If ever your in my arms again
This time i'll hold u forever
This time will never end ..

Now im seeing clearly
How i need u dearly
I still love u so ..

Theres something between us
That wont ever leave us
N i hadnt let it go ..

We had a once in a lifetime
But i just didnt knew it
Till my life fell apart
A 2nd once in a lifetime
Isnt too much to ask
Cause i swear from the heart ..

If ever your in my arms again
This time i'll love u much better
If ever your in my arms again
This time i'll hold u forever
This time will never end ..

The best of romances
Deserve 2nd chances
I'll get to u somehow
Cause i promise now ..

If ever your in my arms again
This time i'll love u much better
If ever your in my arms again
This time i'll hold u forever
This time will never end ..

Imma motte , aishiteru yo . .

2005-01-12T21:36:00.000+08:00

[[ listenin to Nsync - I Drive Mysef Crazy ]]

everyday hasnt been different from boringg since longg .

whyy am i still feeling hollow . so empty inside .

arghh ..

still ...

2005-01-12T01:49:00.000+08:00

[[ listenin to Zhang Yu - Ze Ren ]]

hmm . todayy my ear got 1 hole .

guess all along im just like it so empty .

so hollow .

finally bought my jacket todayy .

shoulders aching once againn .

still ..

2005-01-10T18:40:00.000+08:00

B.A.D - Wo De Cuo

yawnn . tiring dayy .

rainn rainn rainn ..

2005-01-10T02:17:00.000+08:00

Peabo Bryson - If Ever Your In My Arms Againn .

sore neckk .
heading to bedd .

2005-01-09T03:10:00.000+08:00

[[ listenin to Jay Chou - Qi Li Xiang ]]

tiredd dayy . woke up wiv a sore neck .
guess i din sleep well last nite .
hell .. this haunted me the whole damn day .

it's junhong brudda's bdayy .
aaa . he treated us drinks at wanton mee n bt .
i owe u 1 present dude .

bought a konoha chain at far east . damn . finally found it .
ehh . saww the jacket i wana buy oso . guess gonna get it on tuesday .
hmm .
before we went home from bt we went to the carpark .
saw 5 WRX , 2 RX8 , 1S15 , 1MRS all parking together . wow ..
nice nice S15 .. ma dreammmmm carr . *dreams*

hmm . 1mth 11days to being 18 .
after seeing how all my buds. grow older n get suaned for getting old .
aaa . wonders .. how is it like to be 18 . = P .

oh ya .. singapore won indonesia in da tiger cup final .
hmm . kudos !

mistakes are always made .
are u ready to admit to it ?
although there may be a risk of any possiblities happening ..
but i guess .. if u are really still sure of ur feeling about dis mistake .
den just go all out for it ..
guess its easy to just say .. but .. hmm ya .

gone .

2005-01-07T17:33:00.000+08:00

[[ listenin to Liang Jing Ru - Ai Ni Bu Shi Liang San Tian ]]

.

decisions are often made in life .. at all parts of the road .
with luck , u may just make the correct ones ..
but some are bound to be wrongly made .
did u make the decision without knowing what u are truely thinking ?
or did u really mean wat u did ?
many times the 1st option applies ..

the bible says god always gives sinners a second chance to repent .
no-one dares to assure this .
but how will it go if u had these that u haven been wanting.. or haven been daring to say all along ?

cold cold dayy . .

2005-01-07T01:47:00.000+08:00

[[ listenin to Tai Zheng Xiao - Xiang Ni Xiang De Hao Gu Ji ]]

nothingg to tokk aboutt ..

things dun happen the wayy we always wan it to be ..
every1 wishes to just live a simple life ..
but practically obstacles are always made in the way .
mistakes are often made , are u ready to face n admit to it ?

thoughtful huh ?

2005-01-06T01:36:00.000+08:00

[[ listenin to Ou De Yang - Gu Dan Bei Ban Qiu ]]

this song .. =/ ..
nothing much to blogg .

just ..
baffled . thoughtful . dreamingg . thinking ..

whyy .

2005-01-04T23:16:00.000+08:00

[[ listenin to Jay Chou & Landy Wen - Wu Ding ]]

normal .. boringg dayy in skoll .
had IDEAS lecture todayy . guess its time to move my braincells againn .
anywayy got an idea le . juz trying to perfect it . yaa .

went over to clementi to find the guys after skol .
din do anything der except seeing them playy .
after awhile left for yck .
long long journey ..
she finished her class earlier todayy . so she gotta wait ferr mie .
hmm . sorry to keep ya waiting . =)) .

met her poly frens todayy . hmm . buncha frenly peeps .
kinda nice to get along with . hehh .
walkedd around causewayy point . geee .. haven been der fer a longg time .
couldnt findd the jacket n shoe i was looking forr .. arhhh ....
guess im just gonna take another look down at far east .
gonna head down der to do ear piercing wiv ryo-san . ahaa .

yawnn .. im tired .. tired tired tired .
shoulders are aching abit againn .
argh . hmm . ack' . gonna go catch a nap soon .....

2005-01-03T17:53:00.000+08:00

[[ listenin to Jay Chou - An Hao ]]

4th week of ma skol n ma dear's 1st dayy back in skol .
N WTH MAN ! today's skol suppose to start at 10 . i reached at 9 .
i reach the class i still tot "EH , why nobody de ."
lol . BLURRR . went down FC4 myself to sit down n wait for time to pass .
lucky ma wilson buddy pon his GEM lesson oso . so we pei each other .

slept awhile in VB class . wahlan . den lecturer say wana mark mi absent .
CRAZY . bud i tink she kidding la ah . = P .
went fc6 to eat praataa . lalalalaaa . rythme arh ? LOL . lamee-o- .
went for webp lesson . wahahaha . i was the noisiest in class .
eh wait . not because i keep toking .
because i use com to play music through my headfone .
i on full . LOL . lecturer oso dun care . the whole class can hear sia . xD .
baddie miee . awwww ! =x .

den todayy miracle leh . lecturer call mie do dos work i all follow sia .
den i 1st in class to finish . she still praise mi today so efficient . LOL ! =x .
aaaa . den kena release early again . no tutorial .. woohoo ~

went home straight le ~
noww at homeee rotting . yawnn ~

anyway , ma shini sensei said this yesterday .

"i believe dos r/s tat can last the longest are those dat dun often see each other , because absence makes the heart founder ."

its kinda true i must say . hmm .
whatever it is . we'll have each other in our hearts . =) . -poof-

2005-01-03T01:07:00.000+08:00

[[ listenin to Ayumi - Voyage ]]

CRAPP ! coldddddddd dayy .
shivered the whole damn wayy home on da bus .
aaaa . helpppp .

accompanied alex todayy to harbourfront to eatt .
hmm . some things happened todayy .
sighh . would u rather lose ur pride to a girl u love
or lose a girl u love becoz of ur pride ?
its really a pity .

anyway , ma dear's skol is startin' 2mr .
hmm . busy busy busy ..
gotta do some planning between myself n her .
wooo ..
okk . buhh byee ~